What HAVE you been doing young lady?

Ok. So I haven't really been doing anything Meat-related this month. But I've been kinda of out of it- mind all over the place. VERY un-relationship-stable. I've been trying to catch up with friends, figure out what I want to do, and not find meat for the time being. As meat in this time of confusion can cause more confusion (indigestion?). But I feel that time may be changing. Today is my last day with eharmony. I am totally in 2 minds about whether to renew it or not. To be honest, the last few people that I have been in contact with haven't really got me jumping for the stars. But I feel like I'm being really superficial about it- they'll have written something that doesn't quite sit right, although there is every indicator that we'd get along. Maybe I should sign on for another month, and then see...

It doesn't help that this morning there was a guy who contacted me who I really liked. Straight away. Let's call him... Carlton- because that's where he's from. But - I only have one day left! Oh the stress. I feel a renewal may be coming on! There has been no judgment as to whether or not this online dating thing really works. Maybe I need to check it out just a little longer and see.....

What is the Two-time Rule?

The Two-time Rule, simply put, is the agreement that you cannot sleep with a guy MORE than 2 times, for fear of attachment. That is; if you are dating, you probably need some further commitment from him before you sleep with him that 3rd time, if you have a F*buddy, you might need to call it off (like I would have had to with the Landscaper, as I already knew I liked him), and if you're not sure, you definitely can't go there. Please comment if you need clarification on any of these facts.

This rule was used by my girlfriends and I in our early 20's and we found that it was extremely useful and true. Although, don't get me wrong, I had a successful F*buddy over a year long back then... it's just if you ever feel like you like him a lot, or that you aren't in control in those F*buddy situations.

As I get older, I wonder if I will be the same in that I will be able to go more than that; that 2 times is really just for amateurs. On the other hand, I don't really want to be someone who can separate themselves from it sleeping with someone so much... I think they call those people Hookers. Or, maybe Cougars... :)

And thus ends the Honeymoon Period....

Well. It had to happen. I've been here over 3 weeks and now things are beginning to look a little more.... *shudder*... settled. Landscaper called off our fling, the internet dating site is giving me nothing, it seems even my plutonic mates (including Neo) are dating, leaving me not even someone to hang with and give me boy talk. Why do I need to be around testosterone so much?

So everyone seems to be getting on... and life seems to be getting on... but I seem to be sitting in the house, unpacking scarves from Vietnam and reminiscing of my weekends in Thailand, Hoi An and with my friends in Hanoi enjoying massages and cheap ice-cream.

What I need, I think you'll agree, is a night out with my girlfriends. I'm no whore, but I like one-night stands now, and I feel I'm in need for one again. Is that an ok thing to say? Hey, if you don't like it, don't read it.. I'm feeling a little predatory and I hate when I'm like that. Kinda like Samantha from Sex and the City, but without the charisma... damn you Landscaper - you got me started and now look at me!! I should have known not to jump in straight away! And I think what makes it worse is the nicest possible way how he told me he wasn't interested anymore. This was it (via text):

"Hey (name), I hope you had a good night. Look, I need to tell you I can't keep up with this casual shag thing, because my heart lies elsewhere. I'm sorry. (Landscaper)"

Like we were in a relationship! I feel like I was broken up with - F*buddies aren't meant to be like that- you just stop contact!! ARGH why was he so nice!?!